What 2015 Taught Me: A Year in Review

1.) Not all things broken are meant to be fixed...

FAMILY:

I have a very complicated relationship with some of my immediate family members. Over the years I have tried and tried to develop some sort of a relationship with them but to no avail. And as important as family is it is important to realize when enough is enough. No matter how much effort I make on my side, these particular family members didn't bother even trying and in any relationship it takes two to tango. And although I did spend a lot of time trying to cultivate these relationships with very little successful outcomes, I don't regret it. I rather I tried than just stand back. No family is perfect and it's important to spend time with those who love you just the way you are. 

RELATIONSHIPS:

This is a very hard topic for me to talk about. This year I got roped backed into a situation that I probably should've avoided all together. There has been this guy in my life for that I have held a torch for. Even today I still don't know why. This particular year I not only let him back in my life but my heart as well. There are no words to describe the pain that I went through going back and forth thinking that there was some hope out there for us. A part of me should have known better since he has hurt me before many times but at the same time I felt like I finally got closure to our situation. My heart is still broken but I am mending day by day. It has made me realize what I need to look for in a partner and also to take the toxic guys out of my life. As much as we hold on to our old loves, we need to ask ourselves is it really worth it? We all go through broken hearts in our lives but we have to make sure that those broken hearts were worth it. 

When things are broken in life, there is probably a good reason why it is. It is good to try and fix it and sometimes things can get fixed but if it doesn't don't stress out about it. Life is so short and precious that wasting even a second of it over something you don't have control over is just not worth it. 

2.) I despise driving...

So apparently this year I learned that I actually hate driving. I honestly don't know why I was so excited when I was 16 getting my license. I don't know if it is where I live or just the amount of asshole drivers there are out there but driving these days is more of a chore rather than an enjoyment. I need to make more money and hire myself a chauffeur.

3.) Don't ever let ANYONE talk down to you...

I had a professor earlier this year who was also my advisor that told me because I wasn't doing well in his class, I probably shouldn't be in the program all together. And even though I was doing well in my other classes it didn't matter to him. When he said this to me I literally bawled my eyes out for like 3 hours and was close to dropping out of the program. But with the support of my friends I got back up and retook the class. Not only I got an A in the class I ended up raising my entire GPA. It was honestly one of the best feelings I have ever experienced. Never let anyone talk down to you and tell you you can't do it even if it is an authority figure. As long as you give it your all you are capable of ANYTHING life throws at you.

4.) I enjoy eating vegetarian and vegan dishes

Ever since I was young I have been the biggest carnivore. I had to have meat with every single meal every day of the year. This year however on the road to getting back in shape, I decided to venture out my tastebuds and try some vegetarian and vegan options. And to my surprise I actually enjoyed them much more than I thought. Although I haven't completely cross over to the herbivore side I do try to incorporate more vegetarian and vegan meals into my diet. Being Asian has helped since we eat a lot of tofu.

5.)  Loving yourself first

The most important thing this year taught me is that no matter what situation bad or good always love yourself first. If you can't love yourself you can't love or help others around you. No matter what comes your way always charge and face it head on. Happy New Year guys! Thank so much for all the support these last couple of years. <3 xoxo

"Keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about"

-Marylin Monroe 

Keeping It Together January #1 : Letting Go

Hey guys and welcome to the first post of my Keeping It Together January series. This series is designed to help you guys get a good and productive start to the new year. 

This first post is probably the most important one. If you are able to do this you pretty much already have a good start and what is this essential thing I am talking about...

LETTING GO

This is definitely easier said than done. But to get a good and productive start to the new year, it is very important to let go of bad feelings, people etc.. Basically anything causing you unnecessary stress. A lot of us including myself have a hard time letting go but to continue on in the journey of life you don't want these ill things to drag you behind. It not only affects you emotionally but can manifest into something physical. 

Now how exactly does one let go? While I can't tell you exactly how to do it since everyone is different with different situations I can give you some tips to help you get it started.

1.) Throw out any physical reminders that cause you stress or even makes you remember the ill thing

2.) Stop contact with the people in your life who don't make you happy

3.) Go out and take a day for yourself and do something you love

4.) Spend time with those who do care and love you for the person you are

And remember you really do only have one life to life so don't screw it up over the little thing. You will never get those moments back. 

Happy New + UPDATE

Hey guys! Happy New Year! I hope you guys all had an amazing holiday season and not going through a too terrible holiday withdraw right now like I am right now. I apologize for not posting these last 2 weeks. I went on a family vacation to the Bahamas for Christmas and when I came back I needed sleep... lots and lots of sleep. But I am back now and am so excited for this new year! I have lots of fun stuff planned starting with my Keeping It Together January series which will give you guys tips and tricks on starting the year off right. 

One of my new year resolutions is to post more consistently on here. I unfortunately cannot post everyday as I would like due to grad school and other things going on in my life however I have made it a priority to post at least 3 times a week. Hopefully I will be able to keep this up.

I also wanted to give you guys a HUGE thanks for all your love and support. I not only do this for myself I do this for you guys. I love it when you guys tell me how much you enjoyed a post it honestly makes my day. 

So here's to another great year! I have a good feeling about this one.